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When referring to a suicide, we say she took
her own life because we recognize a life
isn’t ours, not really, it’s a thing
borrowed or worn for a short while
like a coat in winter, but
it was August when she stole
her life in her own two hands, the sky
sweat on everything, or wept, all metaphor—
however you choose to say it,
she was tired, she entered the summer night
as if entering a room or a bath
or a long silence, she decided
it was hers, and once she had
it in her grasp, she knew
nothing could ever
make her give it back.
March, month of her
birth, unfurls like a fist
of petals, cold
receding a sheet dragged
back from the earth
which took her
like a seed and now offers
green bristles, leaves,
magnolias like ghosts
waking in the branches.
Leila Chatti is a Tunisian-American poet and author of the chapbook Tunsiya/Amrikiya, the 2017 Editor’s Selection from Bull City Press. She is the recipient of the 2017-2018 Ron Wallace Poetry Fellowship from the Wisconsin Institute for Creative Writing, a writing fellowship from the Fine Arts Work Center in Provincetown, scholarships from the Tin House Writers’ Workshop and Dickinson House, and prizes from Ploughshares' Emerging Writer's Contest, Narrative Magazine’s 30 Below Contest, and the Academy of American Poets. Her poems appear in Best New Poets, Ploughshares, Tin House, The Georgia Review, New England Review, West Branch, Narrative, The Rumpus, and elsewhere.